Current Complaints

[The DARK]

Sorry K. Here's to tomorrow, which is really all that matters.

Up late again. This really has to stop.  :(

You remind me so much of my son. Trouble sleeping because of an overactive mind at night. He is still struggling sleeping at school and will probably continue to do so because we do not believe in medication from "the man" for sleep. The backlash of intelligence.  :(

Nah, just the "all honors" blues. Doubt I'll have trouble with it next year.  ;)

More people acting like they know what's right for everybody. This is starting to piss me off.  >:(

[LizKing531]

You know what?  You think you're on top of life and a day like today comes along and cuts you down to the smallest size possible.  

Without a doubt, the absolute worst I've had in years.  First, I learn of my mother's uncle's passing.  The man died as lonely bachelor, didn't even have a closet of possessions, his most cherished being his bulletin board of family pictures.  Basically my fear in life realized by one man's death.  I was so distraught, that I didn't even react.  To me, it felt like my fears killed my great uncle by some strange account.  

Then this afternoon my boss belittles me while I'm in my office with a customer.  I confront him and say thanks, that made me feel wonderful and how professional it was of him.  He shrugs his shoulders and says "well".  I walked out minutes later absolutely shaking with rage.  I'm now touching up my resume and scouring the local job market.  I'm going back tomorrow, but I'm laying my cards on the table and saying that in my position in life right now, I just don't need that.  If that means quiting, or being fired, I don't care.  Something I have to do.

Shortly after I arrive home, the long-distance 'relationship' I've been nurturing for the past 4 months basically dissolves on account of me (and to a lesser extent, her) making things too complicated.  Something I both expected and feared to hear every day since June 4th.  

I just don't know what to think.  Mere days ago I was riding higher than ever, thinking I had the master plan under my finger.  But alas, I should have known better.  That being said, I feel a weird calm at my core.  Like the realization that today is the starting of a new (and hopefully brighter) chapter in my life.   :)

Sorry guys, had to unload...:-/  :-[

Ya know, I feel you on many levels there.  Right now I would love to turn around & walk & never look back.  Dont beat yourself up over it.  Work sucks - thats why they pay you for it - its the system that forces me into working that really chaps my ass.  

Like it says in Whiskey in the Jar "the devil's in the women & they never can be easy"  Men & women are inherently different creatures.  They cannot ever really understand each other - at best they learn to live with each other, and some of those better than others.  

As far as the long distance thing - man you can second guess that shit til your blue in the face & get into a total mind fuck over it, but I heard some great words of advice - "the grass may not be greener on the other side, but it could be another shade of green thats just as nice" maybe you'll find any consolation in that - I know its been in my mind since I heard it.  Relationships suck too - necessary evil if you ask me.  I did the long distance & moved to be with her - now I can tell you this: if you never spent time in close proximity to her (lived in the same town or same living space) - there's a shit load about each other that you don't know - trust me.

I find myself kind of looking in envy at you great uncle - no strings, no complications.  I've been looking to streamline & take a couple steps back on my life.  Possessions are way overrated - its what you do with them that counts.  

I'm in a spot right now where nothing seems to fit.  I've got my life going, but I can see the friggin hamster wheel encasing me.  I running & running and getting nowhere.  It sucks.  Granted, not everything is as bad as it seems & most all of it is how you look at it.

I need a vacation.

[SMc55]

The Boss is most handsome man alive.  Aside from Mr. Clooney.

Oh, so I gave my two week notice today only to be told to pack up my desk.  Best possible outcome.  I'm not usually proud of myself, but I absolutely danced around my boss with my wordplay and the dumbstruck look on his face was priceless.  His only reaction, was to overreact, of course.  I shook my co-workers hands, hugged my wonderful 'partner' Veronica, and walked out a champion.  With two new pens of course.   ;D

Oct. 2nd, 2007 - It's all happening...

Good for you!!!
You'll remember the look on that idiot's face for a long time  :)

[Kory]

almost out of pain medication for the root canal I had last week and my tooth still hurts...

[LizKing531]

The Boss is most handsome man alive.  Aside from Mr. Clooney.

Oh, so I gave my two week notice today only to be told to pack up my desk.  Best possible outcome.  I'm not usually proud of myself, but I absolutely danced around my boss with my wordplay and the dumbstruck look on his face was priceless.  His only reaction, was to overreact, of course.  I shook my co-workers hands, hugged my wonderful 'partner' Veronica, and walked out a champion.  With two new pens of course.   ;D

Oct. 2nd, 2007 - It's all happening...

Good for you!!!
You'll remember the look on that idiot's face for a long time  :)

I'm over-anxiously awaiting that day.  I just read in my employee handbook that it is against company to give any sort of employment reference.  That takes away a lot of the worry about burning bridges & that shit.  

[aMD]

almost out of pain medication for the root canal I had last week and my tooth still hurts...

call em and ask for me.  worked for me, once.

[megisnotreal]

my surgery is tomorrow.  :-/ i had a bunch of tests done today and then slept. i am getting pretty nervous about this.

[.Walt]

my surgery is tomorrow.  :-/ i had a bunch of tests done today and then slept. i am getting pretty nervous about this.

good luck and best wishes!

[dragonboy]

No need to worry Meg but good luck anyway  :)

[vespachick]

i had a biliary scan this morning, and it turns out my gallbladder is not working anymore. it has to be taken out asap. :(

When I was a little kid (a looooong time ago) my mom had her gallbladder taken out.  It was a huge deal then (I believe Nixon was President!).  I think she was in the hospital for 2 or 3 days.  I remember afterward, she had the little balls themselves in this tiny little ziplock and she would show them to me and it was really gross - those balls were living in her jewerly box for ages! ewww.  But what was worse than that was when she would lift her shirt and try to freak me out by making me touch her scar - which was (and is) about 4 inches long and super creepy.  She would chase me around the house and say "touch it, touch it!".  Of course, I was horrified.  Don't get me wrong, she did it with love.  It's kind of a nice memory now.  Truly.

My point, I guess, is that medicine has come a looooong long way since then, Meg.  You've got nothing to worry about.  Just start plotting how you're going to freak out your little Happy Ewoks!  (Although I'm sure you won't have much of a scar at all!).  Best wishes are floating your way... :)

[LizKing531]

So I'm out for my morning walk (aka wheezing & seeing spots after 1 block run) - and it dawns on me.   When was the last time I smiled?  Not at something funny, not in reaction to someone or something, but just felt like the world needed to see my smile.  Right then I felt it & I gotta say it felt damn good.  It surprised the shit out of me to tell you the truth.  

This year, & the last really, has been quite an eye opening experience.  I'm 26, got a job that pays good (its boring as shit & micromanaged, but thats another story), a comfortable place to live, a good girl by my side, but I feel like I've been stuck in this funk for quite some time.  Like a wheel thats out of balance - sure it rolls, but somethings not quite right.

Its like I have no energy. Point blank - I dont have that push to keep me going through my day.  Maybe its my lifestyle, maybe diet, maybe mind, maybe all of the above.  Then again - my entire world & everything that kept me grounded is gone or has changed.  My bestest bud (my cat of 17years - old boy) passed on this summer.  I never went away to school, stayed in town graduated, got a job - then finally moved out of the parents digs in '05  - moved out of state to be with my girl in 06.  A lot has changed in my life.  I guess the inner recesses of my mind just haven't quite adjusted to all of it yet.

The good news is I'm working on a plan to get out of that funk.  The uncertainty of change has always been a big stickler for me (well that, & the preverbial fulfilling my parents expectations of me, for what thats worth).  Its been my goal this year to force myself to try new things & to look at the world through different eyes.  I've always been a perfectionist & that is something that has held me back because without the grounding of what I'm perfecting, I'm cultivating a nice OCD experience.

Anyway - I felt I needed to really ramble about my day & world.  I started typing with  a heavy hand.  I've gotta say right now I can feel the corners of my mouth creeping up into a smile & I like that.  I appreciate that thin veil of anonomity that the net provides.  Thanks for letting me get some shit off my chest.  

Its like a piece of metal, if its gets fucked up, it takes some work to get it 75% of the way back, but that last 25% takes some serious work to get back in shape.

[megisnotreal]

thanks for the support, people. this shit goes down in an hour. i can't eat anything yet, but i am really hungry.

when i am done with this crap, i am eating everything within sight.

[LizKing531]

thanks for the support, people. this shit goes down in an hour. i can't eat anything yet, but i am really hungry.

when i am done with this crap, i am eating everything within sight.

Shhhheeeeeiiiiitttttttttt, you wont be feeling a thing for a while - good vibes your way!!!

[red]

'Windows Live'   >:(

Give me back plain old Hotmail please and thank you.

[LizKing531]

'Windows Live'   >:(

Give me back plain old Hotmail please and thank you.

I'm totally with you on that one.

[TEO]

Near record heat with a low of 70 degrees today! Come on fall, get it on!

[Chills]

I needed to catch a train, but apparently they weren't riding this weekend due to maintenance works.

So I took the bus back home in a fairly pissed-off mood, I sit down, someone gets smacked in the face right in front my eyes. Had to wait 'till the cops arrived, before the bus took off again.

I officially hate public transport and oh yeah, most people are uncivilised fucking assholes.

Think this was my first post in the current complaints thread. Thanks for listening.  

[Chills]

Think this was my first post in the current complaints thread.   

Just checked this myself and on page two, I'm complaining about that version of "One" with Mary J. Blige. Well, that was a long time ago at least.

[bug]

I hate when I have something that needs to be done around the house and it seems like the whole place has to be turned upside down in order to get it finished.  I got some new bedroom furniture and it looks like a bunch of monkeys had a party here.

[TEO]

October 8th with a low of 72 and a high of 90!   :(